Day 86: Got to keep your head up

I'm feeling much better now that I'm back on the swiss. I'm losing weight again and have more energy. I'm not sure why I was having such an ill-effect on the high protein one, but, I'm sticking to the normal version.

So it's Day 86 on this shake and I'm not where I want to be yet. I'm not giving up though and will continue to push myself forward one step at a time. I don't think failure is really an option.

Tomorrow is another day---a Monday, but, another day none the less. I packed my clothes for tomorrow and laid out my clothes for the gym. All I have to do tomorrow is just get up, drink a cup of coffee, get my gym clothes on, a couple of other household duties and I can get out the door and to the gym for a great start to my day.

I have a lot going on at work at the moment. I'll have to try my best to watch my stress levels to avoid overeating. Stress is a horrible toxin to your system. It's hard to do---but it should be minimized as much as possible.

I'm heading to Chicago in less than two weeks. I'm a little nervous traveling alone to a state/city I've never been to alone. I have a tradeshow to maintain out there but none the less, I prefer traveling to and from with other people.

Alright, good night all. If you haven't already -- check out the recipe page for some shake ideas :)

Day 76: You're miserable because you're fat

 

I had this epiphany the other day as I was getting into the shower at the gym. As I stood there thinking about my life and the way the last month or so has been barreling down on me, this thought popped into my head:

"You're miserable because you're fat." 

Either that's true or it'd be a great title for a self-help book.

I thought about it more --- it's true of course, but there's a paradox there. "You're fat because you're miserable."

We can take from this thought that fat is a problem, clearly, but in order to fix the problem, you need to find the problem.

I'm sure most of you are thanking Captain Obvious right now, but, I think I'm going somewhere with this.

I think that when we allow ourselves to get fat through our misery we're enabling ourselves to be miserable.

I'm miserable because I'm fat.


Does be thin or as I like to say "physically fit in a size 7" fix all your problems? Of course not, money does. LOL...but, it can't hurt.


Anyway, my switch back to the Swiss has been a plus. I have more energy, I feel fuller longer, and I feel like I'm on the path to greatness again! Also, going back through my logs here, I could also say "I'm miserable because I'm drinking this bullshit 25" My weight loss last month net zero. Might have even had a surplus. I'm not about to step on a scale until next month once I get myself through this bottle of Swiss.

I read the slip that comes with the shake---diet/exercise plan. They say you should drink the shake 2 a day. Right now I'm only at 1 a day. I'm not so sure I want to drink it twice a day. I'm certain I'll lose weight that way but I am looking for a life style change. Now, before my wedding whenever that will be I'll be drinking that shake 2 a day! Got to look good for the camera, right?

My exercise routine is going good. I ran 2 miles 3 times last week so 6 miles. Yesterday I ran a mile, (1) but instead of running 1/4 and walking 3/4, I ran 1/2 and walked 1/2. That's what the routine I'm using says to do. Technically I went against the grain last week by doing 2 miles.

I'm going to think long and hard about a workout time schedule to and try to stick with it. I think when I leave it up to myself to decide "Am I going this morning or tomorrow or tonight" waking up, that's a bad thing to do. It'll leave way too much room for the early morning decisions---most of which are "go back to sleep now deary".

Lastly, I want to thank everyone for supporting me on my journey. I've had some great feedback from people saying I've motivated them into taking the next steps, etc. Thanks to the person who said I have "fkn skills!" with my writing. If I come out with my self help book, "You're miserable because you're fat", I expect you to buy it. :)

Cheerio for now!

Day 73: Love the Swiss

I purchased the swiss again today. I'm happy to be back to what was treating me so good. I still have some 25 left, but, I will save that for a rainy day or a big muscly workout.

Tomorrow we begin month 3 with the Swiss :) 

Day 71: Run, MAMA, RUN!

 

Hello! It's been a few days since I've had time to write. I'm happy to be back though.

 

I've started a running routine. I just started on Monday. I'm trying to get back to being able to run a mile without stopping and eventually 2 miles without stopping. It'll be a 2 month goal. The first month is just getting to 1 mile without stopping, and second month (you guessed it) two miles.

I'll say, I do HATE running. I hate the feeling, I hate how it makes my legs feel and I got big melons so that's not pleasing either. I remembered though before I had my daughter I had gotten in pretty good shape by running. It helped me drop weight as a teen and look awesome. So I'd like to do the same thing again.

The next thing I'm doing tomorrow is going back to the Swiss Chocolate. That 25 stuff is not for me. I didn't have the same energy nor the same weight loss effects...actually I think I gained weight on it. Talk about going backwards. Next time, I'll stick to what's working and not start experimenting...especially so early on.

So here's to success and getting back on the swiss!

Day 59: Almost 2 months

I just realized it's been almost 2 months since I started the GNC shake. This second month has not been as successful. I believe it is due to the 25 instead of the regular. For this reason, I will be heading back to the regular shake very soon.

I also saw the main reasons for missing my shake is because I either don't want to wake up my house with the blender (and I don't like the texture when it's not blended) or because we've run out of milk -- and I don't know it until the morning.

The thought I have is buy a case of the pre-made shakes (more expensive--but it'd be my emergency supply) and keep them in the fridge. That way when I have to run, can't run the blender, or out of milk, I won't be out of luck.

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On a life note, this month has been kind of tough emotionally. I'm not really sure why, I don't know if it's my life, if it's my hormones, or if there is something bothering me that I'm shoving down into my subconscious. But. it needs to stop.

I think alot of the time, what ends up bothering people the most is loss of control or the amount of effort in limited time you leave yourself with. That's why I think the only way to feel better is to proactively try to gain happiness.

If you wait for the change to come, put it off until tomorrow, you're procrastinating your happiness, which seems counter intuitive...and really kind of stupid. But, I think that's what's known as being stuck in a rut.

I'm 26 years old, this is the prime of my life. If I sit here moping in my prime, what is the rest of my life going to be like? I don't want to be a quitter, or cower to what I'm afraid to tackle.

One of my first steps in taking back my happiness is I'm going to stop associating with those who don't appreciate the meaning of friendship.

I realized the other day when what I've been considering my best bud since we were just kids hasn't been cooperating much in the friendship. She took on to another girl, which is fine, everyone makes other friends, but the way she was playing me a long I just did not appreciate. I'm not going to be someone's "bitch". I decided that until that friendship is appreciated and a two way street, that I'm not interested in having it anymore. It's just effecting me way more then I think it should and not allowing me to truly be the person I know I am and deserve to be.

I find some other "friends" have been pretty selfish as well and I'm not interested in faking friendships anymore. They don't ask me over and always have excuses when I invite them here. They don't call me to see how I'm doing or facebook me or anything. Again the games are ridiculous. Sure, we get busy but I see that they keep in touch with other people (facebook reveals quite a bit) which gives me a case of the g.f.y.s.

I'm me, I'm comfortable with me, shit, I love me. I love my family, I love what I have accomplished through the hardships I faced, and I'm stronger than those who choose not to understand the meaning of friendship or a true friend.

So, I'll pick myself up by my bootstraps and continue to walk forward, towards my fitness AND my happiness.

This is just the beginning folks. Go get yourself some popcorn.